When I wrote the first post on this blog, a very short time ago– I was extremely positive. What I did not share in that entry was my fear. I was terrified of what I was doing. I was afraid of everything going wrong and that this detour in my life map would be the biggest mistake of my life. As I type this today, almost 50 days later, I am no longer afraid. For the first time in a long time, I am excited for what is to come. I welcome the unknown. Would you like to know why? Because not only has my life worked out better than I could have expected at the beginning of this year, but because I have had outstanding support from some of the greatest people.
My friends are my lifeline and you will hear about them more than necessary throughout this blog, but the support I am choosing to be thankful for today comes from my family. My family was probably my biggest fear when I was deciding to switch my life around. I was afraid of what they would think, that they would be disappointed in me and that I would not live up to their standards. I will tell you right now I could not have been more wrong. I learned this very quickly but this weekend I truly discovered how blessed I have been when it comes to support. Pretty good timing for this discovery, considering it is “Family Day” weekend.
My family is a special one; you would be truly honoured to spend a night with this group of people. My cousin actually brought his friend to my mom’s birthday dinner at my grandma’s and it was easy to tell he was enjoying the festivities as his spit his wine out from laughter on more than one occasion. We have quite a dynamic; we bounce of each other’s jokes like we have the same brain. A simple tease about a camouflage hat can turn you into the hour-long laughing stock known as “Billy Bob Joe”. It is safe to say that I am making my husband sign the wedding license before he ever graces Christmas dinner with the Youngs.
My cousins are like siblings— we’re closer than friends. We know everything there is to know about each other. We have grown from playing tag to an unspoken lifelong bond with unlimited respect. There is 5 years between the six of us but you would never know it. I would honestly do anything for them and them for me. You do not even need to finish your sentence and it is easy to tell that they have truly taken in your point and completely understand. I love that I can turn to any of them at any time and they would drop everything in order to help me out. It is special to find one person like that in your life and I am lucky enough to have multiple related to me by blood.
My grandparents, aunts and uncles have been through a variety of things especially in the last few years. Each one of them their own roller coaster and all have overcome things with an attitude I hope has been passed down to me. My grandmother is an outstanding woman. In her 70s, and just completed her thousandth workout at Curves, she spends her days volunteering all over the city and is still home to make my Papa dinner at 6p.m. She has the kind of class that I hope to achieve throughout my life and I have the utmost respect for her.
The final person who deserves a mention in this post is my sister. She got married this weekend. She is ten years older than me. She has been an extremely important role model in my life. She has taught me about life without even knowing I was her student. She is probably the only person in the world who understands certain things about my life. She is beautiful, funny and has extremely good taste in clothing. We have always been close but this weekend I really learned that I was just as important to her as she is to me. She didn’t need to tell me…it was implied when her family and friends showed excitement to see me. I hope that one day she gets the chance to learn she means just as much to me. This weekend she taught me another lesson; she showed me what it meant to truly love someone, with your entire heart. She gave me hope for what I wish to have in the future and she made me grateful for what I have right now.
PS HAPPIEST 31ST BIRTHDAY TO THE GREATEST SISTER I COULD EVER ASK FOR (and wishing her and her husband all the happiness in the world).